Only Qhimmsters can Understand (Rated R for Foul Language)

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What a shitty week, and it’s just dropping more and more.


Over a long period of time I have been going deeper and deeper into a slum.
This dates back to before the Sony offensive-ad crap, which in itself didn’t help (and has kept me from coming here at all over the last few weeks).

During my time in Thailand I’ve managed to accumulate one actual friend, who actually played games and all that with me.
Somehow we managed to have a fight, and he decided never to speak to me again.  Then he quit his job here, so I never get to see him again to set things straight.
So I’ve lost my only friend, basically, but try to ignore it and move on (especially given how much of an asshole he was at the end), so as not to fall into the dark.

Over a long period of time I had gotten by without companionship aside from him, and even though I had needed female companionship for a while, losing my only friend just made it worse.
A discussion with my boss led me on a search to find a girlfriend, literally for my own health.
To have a nice caring woman waiting for me at home would really help make all the other troubles go away.

So I start meeting women.

Finally it’s 3 that I like, though I had only met two of them in person.
While getting to know these three, I thought there was hope.  My attitude was finally improving.

As for the other two, I met them in person, and we had MSN.  I could talk to them often online and things were going great.
I had confidence.  I could smile.

This is just the calm before the storm.


So this week, first thing, the best way to start off my week is to get an e-mail from my mother explaining that my nephew has hanged himself because he had a fight with his mother.
He was 15.
How fucking stupid.
Jesus Christ how fucking stupid.  I can’t believe this kid would do that.  How could he think his world is the only world??  How selfish can you be??
Take your own fucking life to prove a point that doesn’t even matter in the first place?
How do you not realize that at the age of 15, your world is insignificant?
How do you not realize that when you grow up, you look back and think about how stupid you were?
You can do a lot of stupid shit and then grow up and look back and think about how stupid it was.  The only difference is with suicide, you don’t get the chance to look back.
Don’t get me wrong.
He was my favorite nephew.  But that’s just bullshit.  I can sound harsh because I already know how it was.
I have the scars from my own suicide attempts, and I know what the hell he was thinking.  He wasn’t depressed.  He was pissed and wanted to make a point.
And that’s the third funeral I’ve missed in 2 years since I have been here.
And now all I see are images of him hanging there.  Wonderful.


So I guess somewhere along the line I got a bit stressed out and somehow became inflicted with acid reflux disease.
Now I have to swallow constantly and take tons of pills, etc.
Lovely.  I love it when life gets harder for no reason.


So now I’m trying to talk less to these girls because with my mood I know I wouldn’t be able to have a “happy” conversation, and I don’t want to bum them out.
So I try to reduce the conversations a bit but not so much they think I don’t like them.


Some shit at work happens, followed by some more shit before the weekend.

Finally I wanted to meet that last girl I hadn’t met yet, thinking this might be a good way to cheer up.


So we go to a big mall here.  She is 10 minutes late.  Okay, fine.  I am happy she is here.
We walk for 5 minutes and discuss our eating plans.
Dairy Queen and Chester’s Grill are next to each other, so I would get a snack at Dairy queen and she would get a seat at Chester’s Grill, then I would catch up and eat with her.
So I get my food and go.
She wasn’t there.
I walked around the area, then went back to Dairy Queen knowing she would go there to look for me.
I waited 1.5 hours and called her 23 times.
She didn’t come and didn’t answer her fucking phone.
Yes, that’s right.
She just fucking left.
Waste my time and money.  I had to throw away my ice cream because it melted and got too cold for my hands.
Thanks a lot, fucking asshole.


Nice.
So let’s see how we can make this day worse.


That night, girl #1 of the remaining 2 came online.
She asked how my day was.  Without explaining the details, I summed it up as “Pure shit.  And you?”
To which she replied, “I had a great day!”.
She then proceeds to tell me all about some guy who came up to her on the street and asked her the time, then told her he didn’t really want to know the time but just wanted to talk to her.
Then told me all about how “special” he is and some more bullshit.
Fucking lovely.
Trying not to be a bummer for her, I just told her that was great and I was glad she had a good day.  But I was really about to explode.


Next day, girl #2 sends her friend to chat with me.
Her friend speaks more English and wanted to practice.
This girl is really the girl I like most, as she likes a lot of the things I like, including Japan.
Quite frankly, if this girl would like me, I could easily forget about all the other bullshit.

Later that day her friend comes online and asks me if I want to go out for the night.
I am quite happy at this point.
We arrange our meeting at McDonald’s.
Then, I got the stupidest piece-of-shit taxi driver on the planet.
He drove like a grandma on Xanax.  Everyone was passing us at 20 miles per hour.
Then we finally get there and he doesn’t have a single coin for change.
I had to waste more time going inside the mall to get change, twice.
How can you be a taxi driver without any money on you at all?


How fucking lovely.
By the time I walked to the meeting place, my date had left.
The one girl who mattered the most among them.


That’s just great.
Oh, and don’t think it ends there.
But I’m too busy exploding to continue.


L. Spiro
 
...Wow, I've had some bad days, but nothing that could compare to this...
 
... thats terrible, really man I couldnt imagine a worse situation. Well maybe jari coming in and pointing out grammatical errors in your post (just a joke!!). Seriously tho, I hope your luck turns around, especially with the friend front, because it sounds like your really need someone just to rant at for an hour or two. Your probably very stressed and that is not gonna help anything, my only advice would be joints... and sigur rós. Always helps me when im at breaking point(this wknd hasnt been the best for me, nothing compared to you)
 
Well maybe jari coming in and pointing out grammatical errors in your post (just a joke!!).
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As you may have noticed (probably not though considering your post) Jari has left Qhimm.com. He has erased his profile, meaning all his old posts are still there and show up under his name, however they turn up as Guest-posts now. So, slim chance he'll come and point at or correct anything.

@Lt. Spiro: Shit happens all the time, sometimes it comes in large quantities. Only thing left to do is clean it up and move on. There's always something good in the future.
 
As you may have noticed (probably not though considering your post) Jari has left Qhimm.com. He has erased his profile, meaning all his old posts are still there and show up under his name, however they turn up as Guest-posts now. So, slim chance he'll come and point at or correct anything.
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Why did he quit?  Did I miss somehting, or did he just get bored?
 
Hmm, the same thing happened (is happening) to me.
The dating part, that is.
I know how you feel, but it'll get better.
I know how f*cking annoying it is when a girl you have strong feelings for start talking about how much she loves some other guy, and how special he is.
Oh yes, I know all about it.
And I too have somewhat tried to kill myself.  :|

But don't worry, you'll find someone.
 
Don't get me wrong, I understand.
But this is getting emo.
 
I have the scars from my own suicide attempts[...]
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And I too have somewhat tried to kill myself. :|
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Heh heh... this forum has some rather...depressed members.  Oh EXCUSE ME, I mean members who "want to make a point".  Whatever, no difference, seek therapy NOW before you actually succeed and hurt those around you with your actions.  Not to mention you'll be dead.
 
Haha.
It's been 15 years since I tried to "kill" myself, though. o.0
Life's great now!!1one!  :evil:
 
I already explained my view on suicide when explaining my nephew’s.

People who consider suicide an option don’t have a clue.
They think their lives are so full of stress, yet they don’t even understand what stress is.
Stress means not having the option of committing suicide, but being forced to deal with your problems.

My situation was impossible because there simply were no options.
There was no way to get what I wanted/needed, yet no way to run from the situation either.


I used a different number to call the whore who left on our date and told her to fuck off (actually I had to tell the guy who was with her at the time to relay my message to her).
Then I finally told that other girl who met that other guy to fuck off.  She did nothing but lie about everything the whole time I knew her, as if trying to cause me problems was a game to her.  Nothing but treat me life shit, then blame it on me.  If she got hit by a bus in front of me I’d laugh.  Then call another girl to finish the date.

I mentioned an ex-friend who used to play video games with me here.
For some reason, they day after I wrote this rant, he decided it was life-threateningly important to MSN me, so he told my coworker to have me unblock him so we could talk.
After 2 months of not speaking, it was very important for him to come back into my life and tell me that he stills hates me.
Too bad for him this was the day after I posted this topic, by which time I had already snap-overflowed.
Just as there is integer overflow, there is snap-overflow.
I was (and still am to a point) beyond frustrated all the way back up to the point of blissful happiness, so much so that nothing could change that.
So when he came back trying to give me more stress I just laughed at him.
He explained he hates me, I replied, “Well then it seems you have some personal issues you need to resolve yourself.”
He didn’t like the fact that he was insignificant to me, so he continued.
He told me how everyone hates me at work, and I am all alone.  I replied, “That’s their problem, and I have always been alone.”
He couldn’t get a reaction so he tried to tell me why he hates me.  It was a bullshit reason, like when people make up rules for games.  He laid out these guidelines for what I have to do to be his friend.  “My real friends won’t do this and this and that, etc.”

By now he is just annoying, and very much more childish than I could have imagined.
Still unable to get a reaction from me, he then finally admitted something.

He admitted that he lied to my coworkers to get them to hate me.
I explained in my first post that there was some trouble at work, but didn’t get into the details.
Basically, before he left, he secretly went around to everyone and told them that I had made fun of/insulted the King of Thailand, which is essentially the single most offensive thing you could possibly do in Thailand.

So there really was even more shit happening than what I mentioned in the first post, but explaining it all was too long.
All in the middle of these girl troubles, my nephew, etc., everyone at work just suddenly turned on me.
All the girls turned into total bitches when they were nice before.
All the guys just give me this attitude of, “Get lost,” when they laughed at my jokes the day before.


Luckily for me I had already snapped.
I just didn’t (and don’t) give a shit.
I told him, “Seems to me you’ve made an error in judgment and have several severe character flaws that will most likely hamper your future development a substantial amount.   :-)  However, none of this is my problem, and this conversation has been a waste of my time.  I’m off for badminton.   :-P”


It is unfortunate that I must now be a cold-hearted careless bastard at work these days, but it is necessary.
I’m not going to deal with people’s close-minded and ignorant ways any longer, and if they want to treat me like shit, they get it back ten-fold.
When they want to try to get along again, I won’t make it difficult for them, but when they want to be assholes, well, let’s just say it will be harder on them than it will be on me.


These days are a lot better.
I go out, meet new women, and smile constantly.
I met two new women last night and I wrote an e-mail to the Japanese-loving girl explaining the situation, to which she replied she was sorry and would still like to be friends/try again.


L. Spiro
 
It's good for you too, wright these things down.

Clear your thougts, and so on :)
Girls are gilrs.. they keep rambling about, "that" guy. Although they know you are keeping an extra eye at them.

*sending-you-a-happy-charm*
 
It's good that you vented, and you seemed to cool off quite nicely. Also, notice how quickly things have turned around and you're happy again. :)

I'm hoping the best for you.

Cheers.
 
(...)Basically, before he left, he secretly went around to everyone and told them that I had made fun of/insulted the King of Thailand, which is essentially the single most offensive thing you could possibly do in Thailand(...)
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I can tell we come from two different sides of the Earth. 8-)

(...)Luckily for me I had already snapped.
I just didn’t (and don’t) give a sh*t.
I told him, “Seems to me you’ve made an error in judgment and have several severe character flaws that will most likely hamper your future development a substantial amount.   :-)  However, none of this is my problem, and this conversation has been a waste of my time.  I’m off for badminton.   :-P”(...)
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Good call. You really can only insult people by demeaning them, seriously.

(...)These days are a lot better.
I go out, meet new women, and smile constantly.
I met two new women last night and I wrote an e-mail to the Japanese-loving girl explaining the situation, to which she replied she was sorry and would still like to be friends/try again.
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That's good. Hope things work out for better for you, buddy  :-P
 
Yeah, good luck.  After all, after all this, what's the worst that could happen  Don't want to jinx you.  Knock on wood! :-P
 
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